COMPENDIUM OF A SCRIBBLER.

It was not easy for me,  To fall for someone.. Who smelled like cigarettes and felt like poetry. It was not easy for me, To get disappointed by his flaws.. Yet like him a little more every day. It was not easy for me to talk, When we didn’t speak for a decade of days.. Because we were fighting over a silly thing. It was not easy for me to let my thoughts out, When all he cared about was competing with me in an argument.. And thinking about winning to keep his ego satisfied. It was not easy for me to hope, That we actually could have a future together.. But he had other priorities to be worried about. It was not easy for me to believe, That all he has been doing is just waiting for me to be in his life. Yet breathing easily with the fact that I am not there anymore.

  Stop meeting me behind closed doors. I know that’s what we settled for, But feelings change right? For once at least once even you could feel the same way. If it is so good inside, why not make it similar from the outside! Why is that fear of the society? I wonder how those emotions get impacted by switching venues? May be this is what we agreed on and you are sticking by the rules! But if we felt great about it under the blanket, Ever imagined how great it would be just walking on the roads? I don’t know how this works out for you, May be when you talk emotions to someone  they eventually search for romanticism.  Despite having a control over their feelings, they fall for it.  Having said that, these situationships are creating some serious disturbance in finding love.. And I don’t have all the answers so I am just going to stop trying. Until I get what feels right in my heart!  -DS

The void that I’m feeling, Do you feel it too? You were a priority to me, I hope you didn’t put me in a queue! Life’s not been fair for us, In the matter of love. But we could make our own understanding  about not making it complicated anymore. I like you with flaws and imperfections, Because it’s real when it’s rough! We could be each other’s home.. As It’s cold outside.  Let me know if you agree with the plan? Sometimes it’s best to leave the practical mind  into the woods, And let the heart act out crazily in love..